So I had an epiphany tonight.
I have felt surprise lately, because I think that on some level I expected training to get easier.
Not that I expected our long runs to ever feel easy, but I think that I did expect the recovery runs and the semi-long runs to feel easier just because they were less mileage. I didn't expect to have that "I want to quit" sensation at mile 3 on an SL5.
So I thought a lot about this today, and I have found a solution. My motto in life has always (unconsciously) been: If you can't change your circumstances, change your feelings about them. Well, I want to do this run. So I am just going to quit expecting it to get easier.
It's hard because it is, and nothing will change that.
And I need to just expect to wake up feeling like an 80 year-old woman everyday, wondering what hurts, where I can rub my biofreeze, and how much ibuprofen I can safely take without giving myself an ulcer.
It is what it is.
And deep down I really love this or I wouldn't be doing it.
That's what I will be telling myself when I run L10 with a heat index of 110 this week.