This is sooooo not worth it.
This toe throbs with every step.
L17 was rough. I pulled off 15 miles due to incredibly supportive friends, and my God, and then I had to throw in the towel. My knee almost made me cry, and that's a first.
I am now on a running vacation. I have an appointment with a sports medicine doctor next week, where I intend to beg for a magic wand, or a cortisone shot. I don't know him, and am nervous that he might just tell me that I need to take time off. He will have a crying, mess of a girl in his office if he takes that approach. (In case someone wants to call and warn him.)
So I am going to be in the pool for the next week or two, fighting to stay in shape.
I don't know where this is going.
I don't even know if it's okay to ask for prayers for such a selfish, shallow subject, but....they would be appreciated.
I have done everything I can possibly do to make this happen on my own strength. And I won't quit, but I don't want to get my heart broken. It's all in God's hands now. And that scares me, because he said "No" last time.
Barbara Johnson, one of my favorite Christian authors taught me a prayer in times like these, when you are just SICK of worrying.
"Whatever, Lord."
I'm there. I hear you, Barbara.
And to the three girls who texted or called me by 9am for moral support, YOU'RE THE BEST! You make this all worthwhile, even the black toenail.
And I am seriously loving that boy that I married. He has been my rock, as usual.
Time to go and ice the leg....
Black toenails are a badge of honor! :) It looks ever cooler when it falls off!
ReplyDeleteHang in there. I can't imagine how frustrating this must be for you. If only our bodies would keep up with our spirits.
oh badge of honor, I pray daily that I will never get you. I clip daily until sometimes I bleed....just to avoid you!
ReplyDeleteYou poor girl! That looks awful!!!!!
you hang in there girl. You are doing amazing. Give yourself that credit that you dang well deserve....YOU ROCK!
Oh my... that's pretty gnarly girl! And, hang in there because it only takes ONE good day, ONE good run. We know it just needs to be 10/10/10. Plus, you have trained to 15 miles. That is freaking awesome and I know even if you rested until the marathon you could pull out 26. You are that good and that DETERMINED.
ReplyDeleteThanks girls. I sure couldn't keep trying without all of your words of encouragement and support. Maybe I should take you all with to the doctor. :) So when I give him my wish list you can all cry and beg with me. LOL
ReplyDeleteHeart of a true tough TOUGH athlete :)
ReplyDeleteUgh, feet are definitely not in my 'scope of practice'. Yowza...
ReplyDeleteHope you get that cortisone shot you're hoping for and feel better!
Thanks Dawn, and Jen. :)
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